Hatred.

As days goes by, i feel much more excited. But there's always something that bothers me. Yeah, pretty much upsetting. Could i handle it? Well, frankly i handle with tears. Lots of tears after prayers. Hard to believe? Well, Allah knows.
I couldn't understand why they are still pointing at me. Blaming this and that. Can't everyone that involves should be blamed too? I hate whining about this all over again. This is a huge distraction for me to stay focus on what i should be doing. It totally rips  my heart out. I'm breaking emotionally. I HATE BEING UPSET. Everybody does.
You treat me like i don't have feelings, so how could you expect me to respect you again? You've done that before to someone else, so why shouldn't i? You just got hit by karma.